You think You know ME but You DONT

 
It's funny when people assume they know a person When they don't even have the 1st clue of who that person is or what they have been threw I get so much crap from people talking bad on me saying all type of things about me o she thinks she all this because she's an urban model and been seen in this video and that and party's with stars but she's isn't anything special i know her type these are words of people who have no idea.

I let people assume what they want of me because they are in titled too i don't open up about the things I have been threw and the battles that I fight within because that's my business and a battle that I am fighting and trying to overcome no one else is walking in my shoes but ME,  I didn't want to be judged or have anyone feeling sorry for me but yet I am being judged by many and I'm at the point where I am done sitting back and letting people come at me side ways know matter what I am doing people always have something NEG to say im like this if you dont have anything kind to say to me goodbye i dont need you nor do i want you around me i have been threw hell and i mean hell growing up and the last thing i want to deal with is some one else attacking me and trying to bring me down when i am trying to uplift myself every single day let me make this very clear to all those who don't know I model because I don't feel beautiful within i dont see what other people see im trying and getting behind a camera there is a side of me that can embrace my beauty and express my emotions and how I feel and you can only see that in a picture yes I have done shoots half naked that is a side of me being wanted and desired from men.. I hear how beautiful and sexy I am which I don't hear often i can tell myself im beautiful all day long but hearing it from someone else is just a great feeling. 

But that's not the only side I show I also  show a side of me in fashion as well always in my mind yes  im too short and have some meat on my bones to be a runway model but I can still pose and have amazing photos just like the other girls I see on covers of magazines i too in my dreams can be that girl what most people dont know is all my photo shoots are shot on how i am feeling at that time if i feel sexy, sad,happy, mad, silly or just wanting to do something ive never done before thinking outside the box i can express that in a photo modeling is an art you don't have to be 5'7 or have a big old booty to call yourself a model I don't think of myself as a model I'm just expressing my self and feelings threw a photo.

I got into videos because I had seen actress like Eva Mendes, Kerry Washington, Lauren London have all gotten their start from videos so I thought I would follow behind their foot steps hoping the door for acting would open for me and I get to work with my favorite singers, rappers i always looked at videos like theres nothing wrong with doing them a lot of actress and actors have done videos,  I never planed on being a video vixen or an urban model to tell you the truth im neither because a set is a set and  a magazine shoot is a shoot in my eyes that I enjoyed doing I was always able to meet amazing and wonderful people and network.

  I  go out to support my friends when they are hosting an event or if I am other than that I spend most of my time running my foundation or volunteering my time at children hospitals and schools speaking to the youth Or little events within my community I  always felt I never had to be famous to make a difference in someone else's life and I still believe that because my story is no different from anyone else someone else may have gone threw something worse than me I never want those children or young adults to feel as if they are alone in this world like no one understands them  or they will never make their dreams come true i try to give them hope and faith to overcome all things.

So when people assume or perceive me off of a picture or a title i was given is very sad because not all models Are alike i dont walk around thinking im better than anyone nor do i stay dolled up wearing makeup 24/7 or trying to stay up on the latest hand bags, shoes , etc or talking to this guy or that one if only you guys knew the half I don't wear make up and heels 27/7 nor do I walk outside like a diva more so just jeans a t shirt and flip flops with a messy ponytail and as far as my dating life there's a certain type of man that I want in my life a man more so like my grandfather so I will not apologize for having standards. my life isn't based off martial things never has been and never will be I have goals and dreams that I am achieving but while I'm achieving mine I'm also helping my family and friends reach there's as well I'm opening doors and pushing them in the right direction so they can achieve as well there's more to me than what people see or think Im always doing something to help someone know matter who they are  the things that i work towards Is raising money and investing in properties to help those who are in need and setting up businesses and shops for my children  so they can have something to run knowing its theirs and they are there own bosses in America ive never been a person who looks out for myself no I'm setting up and making things happen for my family and trying to help someone and show them no matter what they have been threw or come from you too can have all you desire in life so before you assume something about someone try getting to know the person 1st before you pass judgement.