Changes

I'll go anywhere I want to in my life I will travel the world and achieve greatness on my own because I have god by my side and my faith is so strong there's nothing can stop me not even me letting go of shady ways letting go of depending on others to show me the love and respect that I deserve because I have it for myself love and self worth self power to be all that I can be :)

Calling on me

I can't keep crying I can't keep putting myself down I just can't keep doing it its not fair to me it's not fair To the person who's waiting on me I'm sorry I'm an emotional person who sometimes gets so lost in my feelings and feel bad that so many things haven't turned out the way I wanted them to not because of other people I can't blame them for how they treated me I let it go on I let myself believe it was ok because it was out of love or because I felt they cared its never ok to let people mistreat you ever it's not ok to 2 nd guess who you are as a person you wonderful inside and out and if people can't see that then that's there problem not yours never change the amazing person you are for anyone it takes time to achieve your dreams but as long as you believe in yourself you will make them happen stay on the right path stay motivated stay humble but most of all stay wonderful and keep fighting for your happiness never let the devil knock you off your path keep your head healed high and your faith so strong there's nothing you can not do God has your back and will see you every step of the way it's never to late for any of us my loves never

I No i get all in my emotions just to realize I know what god has called me to do wasting my time and gifts on people who dont matter is showing god I'm not thankful or grateful for what he has done for me or what he has planned for me so with that being said forgive me of all my sins guide me to the road of peace and what I was born to do on this earth my true calling in life watch me grow into the woman I know you want me to be amen

Everything I question

I am over being kind I know people say never hold what someone else has done to you over others but explain to me when everyone who has walked into your life has done nothing but hurt you how do you not treat everyone the same I have been battling giving my heart going above and beyond but yet I still have the same outcome every time

Is there something wrong with me where I find it ok to be mistreated to be talk to like crap buying and giving and taking care of others I'm so confused and lost in my own thoughts I pray to god he hears my prayers he answers them i know I complain so much and people get sick of it and I'm sure god does to but how do I make things change into self power self worth self love

I feel as if I have all 3 but my heart is so huge I hate saying no I hate not giving I hate not caring I love putting others people needs before my own I feel I'll be more blessed by doing so I never want anything from anyone but a thank you and a smile but am I doing to much for others and nothing enough for myself i know half of the things i do people will never return the favor or do the things I do for them as they will do for me but I don't care that's not why I give wanting something in return that's not why I go above and beyond Wanting them 2 return the favor

I question myself am I a good person in my heart i feel that i am but why do so many bad things happen to me whAts my real purpose in life all this writing is showing me how much I need To get on my knees and pray to god I should never question my worth or my purpose on this earth

When you can't cry anymore

You ever have someone tell you how much you mean to them and tell you not to worry about anyone else because they see the real you and you spend time having heart to hearts talks learning and opening up more with one another about your childhood stories family stories and just life period.

To be at an event and to follow one another around to show out and show everyone at the event you both talk to one another giving someone who means so much to you a gift and they say thank you but don't call you to tell you how much they loved it am I missing something..!

Someone please help me understand what relationships are now becoming when is it ok not to be thankful when is it ok to string someone along to play with their emotions why do that please let those people go they are truly not worth any more of your tears they lie to your face and say you mean this and that but yet the same person they claim they don't like they seeing On the low they just dont want to lose you but keep you around as well.

I've had enough I say this over and over but I am so sick of Crying my eyes out for someone who I can not trust nor believe in I could see if I asked for money hand bags and was with you for your fame but im not and wasn't I never wanted anything from you and still don't but your heart some of your time but yet I can't even get that I lose I'll never win.

I know for a fact I am one hell of a girl to have by your side I'm not perfect I made mistakes but I've never lied I've never mislead you I never asked of anything but yet when I ask you to do simple things for me talk to my brother encourage him I get I forgot when I ask for you to help me just by a simple RT for my charity you dont but every twitter hoe you see you do anything for I ask you to come here you pull away but yet grab me and say don't walk away from you tell me why the hell should I stay I'm not happy and we are not friends or in a relationship clearly when you stop talking to me you hit me with your new # I didn't ask you for it I was ok with moving on but No you had to keep me in reach so you can break me down every chance you get what the hell did I ever do to you to deserve this type of treatment from you please help me understand please because I'm not saying I'm done anymore I'm going to show you FACT how much I'm done because this isn't love this abuse when I know I don't deserve this from No man I'll never let anyone treat me like this ever again in my life thank you for helping me realize I am truly worth happiness love and respect because if it wasn't for you I would have never known my worth thank you thank you thank you

I'm asked this over and over here's the truth

Im often asked How could I spend years of my time loving & caring & fighting for someone who never cared or respected me thats a Good question but take away the money, name & Fame I seen so of myself in him i can relate to growing up without a dad being raised by a single hard working mother people assuming your always angry but deep down your not they just don't see the hurt the pain the sadness the tears you cry because you never show your emotion keeping everything inside Keeping to yourself working your ass off for a better life for you and your family having that special someone in your life who took the chance and never gave up on you because they believed in you. I stayed because I wanted him to NO i understood why he is the way he is his struggles and mine are different but some what similar we both can relate to one another that he could trust that he has a friend in me despite anything he knows i have has his back because i love and want nothing from him other for him to be happy and to continue to shine and be the greatest who ever did it that's why I stayed around for all these years....!

Believe in your happiness

Sometimes we put up with so much disappointment hurt & pain from the ones we NO who don't care because we say we love them so we make it ok hoping that one day they will change but never do so we are left wondering & feeling worthless & have given up hope on love until that 1 person comes along 2 remind you what love & friendship truly means words can't express the happiness & joy you have but it shows always be thankful 4 the relationships that didn't workout because you are now with the person who was right for you all along :)