Miss Walker

Dear younger self
I want you to know you are still hurting and you allowed yourself to make so many mistakes in your adult life I wish You weren't in such a rush to grow up I wish you would have taken your time and enjoyed your youth and take school more seriously I want you to know the relationship between you and your mother gets better the world knows who you are but not in the way you want them to know you as an actress but as an urban model I wish you would believe in yourself more and stop 2nd guessing yourself you are still truly a wonderful beautiful person inside and out its ok to say No it's ok to speak up it's ok for people not to like you don't have to please everyone not everyone is meant to be your friend you still have a smile that lightens up a room you are still the sweetest person ever It's ok to let people in to get to know you I am proud of you for opening up about your past speaking out to help others who have been threw the Same thing as you are not alone in this world

You and Britney are still friends and closer than ever you 2 push one another to be better shes always there for you and will always be your sister and best friend

You have learned the true meaning of love and how to be treated but you lost Marcus due to your Insecurities but believe when I say you haven't found the right yet but you will and when you do you will be truly spoiled with his love and have an amazing friend and Partner in your life.

You are truly an amazing woman and a wonderful friend your heart and arms are always open you truly care about others more than you do yourself you are honestly like your grandfather always wanting the best for everyone you are truly a blessing. It took you a while but you have grown into your own skin and believing you are a beautiful within and out

You've learned the true meaning of living life and doing things your way and doing what makes you happy you are the trying to be the best sister in the world you have honestly turned out to be an amazing woman who follows her heart never holding grudges you have such a forgiving heart and starting to be an amazing cook

honestly Miss Walker you are truly special and happy to see you believing In your self and fighting for your dreams and having such a wonderful relationship with God you are something special I am proud of the woman you have become you told yourself you had enough and made a sacrifice to do better and be better for keeping your focus and and determination to succeed in your life you go girl

Goodbye 2011 Hello 2012

Before 2011 ends I wanted to say I have learned so much about myself and the things I truly want for myself and also for my family I learned the true meaning of being in love and also losing love

I learned the true meaning of friendship and also having those around you who aren't your friends but who use you for who you know or knowing those who use your kindness and mistake it for weakness and also knowing the meaning of self worth and having those who wish you well and also those who want to see me fail I in life I also learned the true meaning of beauty and believing in love with myself and having standards for my life it's ok to speak up and not be afraid to say no or whats on my mind it's ok to take chances in life when I say I learned about self worth just because someone may have more than me doesn't mean they have the right to speak to me or treat me any kind of way just because they have money or a big time star i treat people with respect thats how i deserve to be treated as well I open my arms and heart to everyone never judging others for who they are or what they do I see the good in everyone but ive allowed myself to get walked all over and judged because I don't walk around in make up or YSL or rock every hand bag in the world I've allowed myself to do so many foolish things and have viewed my life as always pleasing and seeking people approval So when I say Ive learned the true meaning of self worth it's being happy with who I am and what I have and where I am headed in my life ---- what people may have say I am beautiful and going threw my struggles but know God will see me threw an bless me an my family with all he has planned out for our lives Im not going to be afraid to live my life and worry about thing I can not change

If I can give advice to anyone it would be live your life with so much love and just do what makes you happy always put yourself 1st I am not prefect and no one on this earth is we all make mistakes and have a past of things we are ashamed of but thats life we are only human and have to learn from every choice we make in life but keep your faith within yourself and believe that you have been put here on this earth to be a true blessing in someones life as far as being a great friend amazing husband or wife mother or father an amazing son or daughter brother or sister whatever the reason you are here for a reason enjoy life and live it up I am excited to say I am truly happy with the changes I am making and also working harder to achieve my dreams and thanking god for opening my eyes and showing me what I need to do but also for all th love and support he has for me and never giving up on me I am proud to say I am a grown woman who knows what she's deserves and know the true meaning of love and support and working hard to achieve all my dreams while in blessed to see another year.

I welcome 2012 with open arms and truly excited for what I have in store for myself and always what God has planned out for me and my family most people say what they are going to do I rather just do it and let my work speak for its self but I wanted to say thank you for all supporting me and coming on here to read about my life struggles and the progress that i am making thank you all may god bless you all.

M.A.C

I will always love you showed me the true meaning of being in a relationship what it was like to be loved and pushed me to always do my best and believed in me when I didn't believe in myself always putting a smile on my face but my selfish ways and acts and taking advice from my friends played a big role on our relationship you did nothing wrong I was the one who messed up I couldn't let go of my past relationship the Hurt and the pain so I took it out on you my new boyfriend which wasn't fair to you at all I regret every selfish act I did and not letting myself be happy with a man who truly cared, loved and only wanted the best for me.

I hold you dear to my heart wishing and praying I could find someone like you but I never do I always end up with worse my friends say I'm still in love with you that maybe true but i know deep down we can never be not even as friends all thanks to me i know you are happy and in love with someone else and I'm truly happy that he has found a woman who treats him with the respect and love that he deserves do I wish that was me of course but as long as he is happy I will forever be Marcus if you ever read my blog this is for you

I didn't know how to love I didn't know how to express my feelings I didn't know how to be the woman you needed me to be until it was to late but when we broke up I truly believe it was for the best I understand now why and everything you was saying to me i want you to know that you have taught me more about loving and caring truly more about myself than you will ever know and for that i want to say thank you and I'm truly sorry if i caused you any pain thats not what i was trying to do im sorry things couldn't workout between us but i see now it was for the best because you are truly happy and have found the right woman for you and i see i have to let you go to find the right one for me but I will always wish you the best :) I've always wanted the best for you and i always will I know I said we could never be friends ever and don't ever speak to me again I was honestly speaking out of anger and truly didn't mean it you know me if you hurt me I say things to hurt you back but I just wanted you to know you will always be the guy that I loved and hate that We cant be friends and that i did you wrong but i am happy you are doing well with school, Football and have someone who supports and loves you deserve the best and I will always wish it for you ;) xoxo

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